Friday, September 21, 2007

berhutang keliling pinggang

This Monday, I went to KLCC Petronas Twin Towers to negotiate with HR to let me defer my reporting date to 10 months later..that is after I come back from Italy. After speaking to the HR Petronas Center, HR Petronas Carigali and Education Sponsorship Unit (ESU)...I ampu ampu ampu..still got a "NO!"

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you are now reading the blogpost of a girl who just landed in a nice big debt with Petronas. RM42.5k, for the 5 years that Petronas sponsored me.

Arrghhhhhh I also now very dilemma. This current boss is very disappointed that I am leaving...so I think my chances of returning to this company upon returning from Italy is negative. Since he was like ,"WHAT? Giving up such a good working opportunity to take Italian????" Cannot be accepted. After all, this company is designing first of its kind aircraft in this world, and me taking up a position as an aircraft design engineer here, and sumore its first female engineer sure very challenging right???

Also...the bonus that is impending is pretty damn tempting alright. The boss promises a big fat bonus for everyone when its first Proof of Concept aircraft flies. Supposedly end of this year. Gahh. I only been here, what, 4 months??? So calculate here and there, don't think my bonus is going to be THAT good~ now everyday I just do my work lo..and hope to leave the company with a good impression la. It is a worthy investment. Cos the boss is those type that very 'small gas' one..once you betray his trust, it's going to be hard to get back into his good books. by betraying his trust, I guess it means that I leave the company now when my CFD~Computational Fluid Dynamics knowledge is super needed. hahaha. as if la. I'm still a noob in this. Just that I'm the one that stupidly staying back late every night to work. In 2 months' time, I was going to get confirmed. RM3000 adi the salary. Once again, tempting. but..Naaaahhhh.

Italy or not? After the verbal confirmation from the lady in charge from L'Ambasciata di Italia since last week, I have not heard from her yet. Ketensionan. I mean, I really need to start buying all the stuffs already right? But if my pre-enrolment is not confirmed, anything may happen. I refuse to stock up on shampoos, shower gels, facial cleansers and lots of canned food unless its definite. More over, thinking of buying a digital camera (although my bank is negative already as it is)...cos salary coming out next week..Tomorrow I can overdraft 1st..@ borrow from my colleague. hah.

Sighhhh..

Petronas or not??? So the HR Petronas Center is willing to give me another 2 weeks to consider if I want to join them or not, for sure they cant wait for me 9 months.. But my prospective employer, Joint Venture Division in Petronas Carigali is urgently waiting for the employees to report in so that they get started on their projects (or so the HR says)...I really really really wanted this job also..cos this position involves dealing with people (which I recently discovered I have no talent to deal with machines/computers) and liaise with those having business with Petronas i.e Shell, Talisman, ExxonMobil etc...can go offshore...can go travel...can do commissioning etc. Damn. and as all Petronas staffs tell me..working in Petronas really has its benefits..in the sense that the employee benefits and bonus is really lucrative.

But Italyyyyyyyyyyy. sigh...kesimpulannya no matter what decision I make, I will hutang keliling pinggang..if I go for Petronas, I wont have to return the 42.5k, but I will miss the chance of the Italian scholarship (worth about RM35k)..but at least I won't have to pay it back..but sure regret forever if I don't go.Should I let go of this opportunity to go Italy and just go Petronas and work????? work..what a depressing word.

so basically, its at this juncture, again its time to make a decision. -_-" hate it.

actually made my decision d. chose to go Italy. There is no right or wrong, nor it may not be the best decision either.

p/s: Zharif (my colleague) says he will miss me a lot when I leave. But till now he hasn't given me my birthday present (he made me mention him in my blog..so here it is) haha.

10 comments:

narrowband said...

Pretty firm with the choice I see! It'll get you somewhere ;) By the way, losing the Italia scholarship does not make you hutang keliling pinggang! You merely lose out on a bonus, but you don't lose anything.

Anyway, I'm happy that you've solved the kes yourself. Look forward to your Italian pics... (people say we should have all the fun in the world before we grow too old... now is youropportunity ;))

Anonymous said...

dave: I think if she leaves now, she'll have to hutang 42.5k to petronas instead. That's why will hutang keliling pinggang.

hc: Totally emphatise with your situation. But I'm glad you've made up your mind :)

anyway, just to make things clear, you're currently working with JVD, Petronas? Making plane designs?

Interesting...

btw, Petronas is quite a company, lotsa benefits, perks, and of course like all things bold and beautiful, there's the ugly side :)

If I'm you, I'd bang my head on the wall, till it bleeds profusely and I'll die on the spot due to lack of blood. At least it might've been a scene, a blood squirting fountain.

Anonymous said...

Go court some sexy italians. If Nakata is still in Perugia, I would've kill to be in ur shoes! Seriously, go see the world and come back later to be part of the Malaysian workforce. Bear in mind, it's never too late to WORK!

E-quan said...

wah..budah budak skrg ni. muda muda sudah hutang sekeliling pinggang. apatah sudah dewasa? mesti pinjam kat ah long punya..wakakaka!

jk.

dun have any suggestion for u but since u've made up ur mind oredi. go for it! all the best =)

Anonymous said...

GO TO ITALIA AND MARRY AN ITALIAN TYCOON. PROBLEM SOLVED!

Ayah said...

Join Petronas. Italy can always wait. There will be other chance, by fate or design. $@K is quite a burden, may affect life in future. Making tough decision, it's the part of growing up... real life decision now...

Anonymous said...

i strongly agree with ayah.

but...

opportunity like this comes once in a life time...and it will be an added value to your resume having master another cool language..if im in ur shoe i will go crazy coz both offers are so just darn tempting..

in the end my dear..whatever decision you made..you have to stick with it and deal with the consequences later..if ur ready to take the responsibility..then to me u already a grown up..

good luck to you...n i'm surely gonna miss u for the next 9++ months...

p/s: let's have a fling b4 u leave..huhuhu..interested??..i can manja u from thousand of miles away...ahaha

Anonymous said...

I will always advise to follow the heart but then weighing the situation is inevitable
Based on your situation you will have to take the Petronas, like it or not
With the benefits and bonus, you can go Italy anytime after that

Anonymous said...

soz girl, i worried of weirdos reading it so i made it private =p aiya log in for me loooooo

H.C. Tan said...

narrowband: haha yalo. it's a toughie...I dont want to hutang keliling pinggang..being rational I should opt for Petronas..how also it's one of the best companies to join in msia.. but..aihssss

khek: now im not with Petronas JVD yet,..am working in a aircraft design company, based in bkt jalil..the parent company is in UK...and dont la bang urself against the wall..haha

ptc: I'm glad u support altho ahkee and ptn think otherwise..haha

equan: i still dont have to resort to ahlongs cos I have friends with money.hheheheeee

jan: i wish le dear.haha italian mafia also can..like abruzzi type wan

ayah: that's what my ayah said also.."italy can wait"...but sometimes when we are too caught up with work..and as we become older, there are more responsibilities we have to shoulder adi (e.g car loan, housing loan) esp when you marry..so I'd think that if I dont go now...I may never go in the future..

buyong: I dont know..mayb 9 months later when I come back, i go Pet HR and kneel down and beg and cry buckets and ask them to accept me into JVD..as for the fling, please refer to HCFC official website clause 7.1.4

zI: sighhh i know..but..stil...im going for Ita..sick of working after 4 mths..the 42k..will think of it when i come back lor

jan: sigh.ok la demi u =P