Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

...Maaf zahir batin ar!

to all the Muslim readers...and non-Muslim ones...

Other than the holidays, the best thing is the fact that there are barely any cars on the roads today! yesssssss!!! took me 15 mins to reach workplace instead of the usual 45 minutes, i mean if I bertolak from home at 7.30am lah. yay yay...yay yay... (*pumps hand in the air)...hence the good mood today...

Too bad I have to work this Friday lah (cos no leave mah..sigh sigh...) but as long as don't have to be stuck in the jam can adi...

thank god it's friday

time just flies...!!! dengan tak disangka i've worked here 1.5 months. also earned sorta gaji buta till now. well, occasionally i do have things to do as per my job description, but rarely...rarely... yesterday kena sound from the evil Team Leader also. but that's my fault lah for not doing what I was told to. blah blah. but i insaf adi, i'm the "once bitten twice shy" kinda person. so now must remember what i've been told to do...

not much progress about the part-time for the italian guy i mentioned, guess he's really tied up with his stuffs as well. but slowly lah, me also tied up doing nothing...

just wanna share this pic, taken during my bd 2-3 weeks ago...actually got a bunch of pics (with Heng, Lin and their respective abangs) but they're in my laptop...this one coz Lin's abang took one, so emailed me loh.

Thank you darlings! (oh arent those 2 big candles and 1 small one? hehehe)

now i'm going to fill up my weekend meaningfully...am going to start tutoring my cousin chiayee (who's in Form 2)...hopefully i dont embarass myself by not recalling to solve even simple math!!! (it's true, the older u get, the more you learn, the more you forget), and in between helping at my aunt's restaurant...and meeting up with friends occasionally. how i wish i had dates instead of meeting up with old friends instead. hahaha (joking k, later kena boycott from my friends here)

at the moment, am still sorting out my long term goal/short term goal (with reference to my previous "how do you measure success" post)...still have not decided which one is for me...but i really need to decide...i dont understand why i am so free but yet i procrastinate so much...oh well...we are allowed to dwell in our miseries once in a while (call it a..."down phase")

Happy weekend people...!!!

Suffering...

there are many times when we have to suffer in life, in different phases in life...

as a child, when sebat/hentam from parents for being naughty...
as a schoolgoing child, having to carry so many books to school etc..
as a uni student, having to study 4 exams/cram so much info into such a little brain/assignments

then of course, suffering from stress, too much workload yada yada. i graduated d, so no more studying/student life stress kan? am in the working phase stress now.

a few of us, at least among us who keep regular hours at work (9-6, 8-5 etc) email each other at work. Lin is suffering over her weekend duties, Heng is suffering over her super permintaan tinggi boss that gives her gunungs, Loke emailed to say that she is suffering because everytime near public holiday sure got issue one (work related of course). of course i kena "shoot" that I am the free-iest and work-less among all of us (at the moment)...

I was like, who say...I'm also suffering what...from boredom. and in the working world ladder, that's the highest stage of suffering, which is suffering out of boredom. hahaha. =P (i think in cantonese it's called "sai meng"/ menjemur nyawa??) lol lol. joking only lah...

P/s: but today i have another suffering also, which is suffering from pain due to my weekly Tuesday "Torture Day" for my Advanced Level Yoga Session where my teacher and her students engage in an hour of melipat-lipat their badans and god-knows-what-poses. Wahaha, I'm one step closer to being one of them adi. Ouchhh....

oklah, back to suffering guys...

p/s/s: oh and I did go to Velvet/Zouk last weekend after all. hehe. but really not my cup of tea already lah. my old age cannot handle it...i think i'll take up knitting or some stitchwork....

so how do you measure success?

I was talking to Charng (via email of course since she's in Sg - dengan bahagianya) and I was asking her how does a woman measure success?

1) to have a high-flying career (meeting clients, having a jet-setting friends, she knows everyone, everyone knows her) but coming home to an empty house every evening

or rather to have:

2) a normal job (maybe clerical job...or maybe my job as a quotations analyst hahaaha which keeps regular office hours) life very unhappening but going home to a loving husband and kids...

Maybe it's the monotonous lifestyle that I lead in KL...but i'm starting to think that option (2) is much more appealing. Hell, even Charng the superwoman thinks it. and us just being 24! But isn't it nice to go home, and the husband provides for you...and you finding yourself looking forward to going home everyday, to cook for your family (and them appreciating the food and its all happy and meriah)??

of course it's not so ideal as we think lah. its not like the husband is always so appreciative...and the kids will complain about the food, and you argue over financial matters...then there's the washing, ironing, helping children with homework (worse still, if still baby have to breastfeed, feed baby change diapers middle of the night) but still im sure there must be some kebahagiaan-ness in it right???? see...got some; like Ayah that speaks happily (sometimes a bit kecil hati-ly) of his kids, and Nyonya Penang who speaks of her 2 kids etc etc. Nice u know...

me...in my blog what do I talk of? lately of nothing lah. very routine. recently joined gym so can talk about how out of form i am, how the whole body hurts, how i am aging (macam all complaints ajer)...i wake up 6.40am-7am in the morning, take a bath, get stuck in the jam till Jalan Tun Razak, go work (or pretending to work), go lunch (walk out under scorching sun, sometimes meredah hujan), then continue pretending to work, then wait till 5pm...drive back sesak-sesak, then back home. lately got additional activity, so go gym awhile...then lately my HPC Monday dinner gang not free, so I don't meet them for dinner...then finally...about 8-9pm, i reach home...to an empty home (got my uncle's gf ar, but we don't talk much to each other)...I eat my dinner, take a bath, then i hid in my room, watch repeatedly my animes/italian movies (i bet a few more rounds and i can act out some scened in La Vità è Bella d) then go sleep...then next day the same...weekends lagi teruks although it's nice to see different people at my aunt's restaurant and to talk with my aunt, uncle and cousins, yet...something is missing. I don't know what. Sense of belonging, maybe? They could make do with or without me, so it doesn't matter if I appear or not...gym...I could talk to people but communication barrier I don't like to attempt to speak in my broken Cantonese.

yes lah it's the time of the month where you feel all down and depressed loh. I miss Penang. And I've just started working for 1 month + 1 week... I need some goal and motivation lei...Maybe I should re-enter the world of clubbing again...but not safe to go home after clubbing lah. sigh. what do i need what do i need...

ok i think my boss detected me blogging

to be continued... (happy weekend guys!!!!!)

p/s: I'm sure things will get better soon...

so so mouliu

...until that I Google myself. hehe. found several entries. to this blog...to my Facebook...lol. cos now boss is back ar...even worse, have to pretend to look bz. but in actual fact really nth to do mar.

i went for the Power Yoga session again. naturally my body hurting like crazy again...

aihs...

this blog very dull hor...

oh, recently i got in touch with an italian guy, so i might working part-time for him (decent job ok!) so can polish up my long-forgotten italian lah!

ok...back to pretending to work...everyone have a great day ahead!!!

whole body is hurting...

not that I did anything interesting or what lah, that's why didn't update my blog... I want to post about past travels, but resizing images at work would be wrong...lol...and too obvious!!!

but I was reading thru some blogs of friends, some who are traveling at the moment, it's really nice to read about their escapades or their adventures, without a care in the world (of course, there are some who travel within budget, like me!)...so i'm still adamant to post one of these days about Sicilia (chapter 3 lol) and the rest of Italy and the other countries that I've been to. if not a bit wasted to keep some really nice pics to myself right????

...now that I am actually working I feel so bored, but when I was in Italy I felt useless. I don't know which is worse. lol...

I'm thinking of volunteering somewhere, but in a way I feel like I don't have much time to myself to do things that I personally like...weekends I meet up with friends...sometimes during weekdays as well lah...then if not I go to aunt's restaurant to help out...otherwise it's not like I have loads of free time or what also...

hmm...hence...the only times that I actually have time is from 6pm-11pm (approx. 5 hours) to do what I want. it's not much, but it's a good 25 hours (5 x 5 days)... so...I've decided to join a gym!!! yes lah, to get back to my infamous ZAMAN KEGEMILANGAN...where everything that was supposed to be small, is small...what is supposed to be rounded and perky is rounded and perky. lol. now sure lah, all out of shape...but as I always said, Round IS a shape...

I just started 2 days ago. 1st day i just jalan 1 hour only...ytd did Pilates and Yoga...today badan very sakit so going to let it recuperate a bit...cos too long didn't berexercise d, so need to get my body into the exercising mode...

but now the sakit kepala also come d...the 2 days that i went to the gym, the next mornings I had super cravings for nasi lemak..yeah had nasi lemak for breakfast yesterday and today...not exactly helping to reach my goal ah. lol.

ahhh so anyways its the yoga and pilates that's making my whole body ache all over lah. lol...

ok back to work...

no need to worry d loh!

....cos Facebook is already blocked in my company. probably 99.9% of the ppl here spend their idle them on FB...

end of problem. problem solved.

now i don't have to think of the fact that I don't have the time to update my blog liao hahaha.

toodles~

phaiseh tak update blog

itu facebook punya pasal lah. akhirnya i dipressurekan to join facebook also cos it's the only way i could keep in touch with some ppl i met in italy...and of course most of the ppl are using facebook d...friendster is considered obsolete...

then i'm like so bored at work so im clicking Refresh every 5 minutes on my hotmail account and facebook. hahaha.

so cannot juggle two things at one time ar...i have not even uploaded the pics that i wanted to in facebook, just a few from my barcelona trip... and neither for my chapter 3 of Sicilia in my blog.

oh i was back in Penang during the merdeka weekend, but didn't have the time to meet up with anyone except family cos i reached like, Saturday night... spent 2 days with my cousin to shop for some working clothes ar (since i got my 1st paycheque d)...after much pain...i got a few items lo. the past 3 weeks i look absolutely chan at work. now still chan, but less chan d. hehehe. now my wallet very painful ar...

time flies lah. even though there isnt much to do at work...cant wait to actually be doing work...starting to feel very nonsensical d...