Life goes on for all of us

Thanks ya to friends who dropped by to extend their condolences and comforting words over my friend's passing. I came back on Tuesday evening to KL..the trip back Penang was horrible, maybe because I did not buy any ticket in advance..extra expensive (RM33!!) for a 4-seater Bas Kilang!! The trip back to KL was much better, costing me only RM27 and also 3-seater Konsortium.

Many people has texted, asked me why my friend was killed in such a gruesome way. Oh yes, Penang has changed...and I seriously hope it doesn't become like KL or JB. I,more than occasionally, drive in the middle of the night alone at 3-4am =( Anyway, the police said that AhYu was murdered by professionals, and it has been planned already. But most probably done by triad members lah. Jealousy,maybe? He was involved with triad,in a way,ever since I knew him more than 2 years ago. But lately he has turned over a new leaf, meaning that he wants to be a new person, no longer involved loan sharks, etc. But the perpetrators obviously are not giving him a chance to lead a new life...His sister was sobbing away asking why can't the killers slash him once or two just to let him learn a lesson? Immediately they took away his life just like that. I was quite able to control my tears at his parents' house, but it is heart-wrenching to see the immediate family members crying. His mom kept hugging me and cry, wailing why does it have to happen?...Who knows, perhaps this is retribution from what he committed in his past when he was in the triad, or just plain fated to die. =( but triad or not,it shouldn't involve taking one person's life!

But what is done can't be undone,so its the memories that keeps the person alive for us I guess. I guess the entry after this can be a bit boring, cause am going to talk about him nia. Treat it like a novel reading lo,but with poor English lah..=P

He was a very sweet guy..I mean, in my days of knowing him lar. He was selling claypot chicken rice at the coffee shop that my grandpa opens. in fact, his stall is very much popular(delicious!) among the patrons of the coffee shop which consists of factory workers nearby. When I first saw him, I tot he had the nicest broad-shoulders that..I don't know,I just have this fetish towards broad-shouldered guys,so naturally I thought he was very good-looking. At that time, during my semester holidays, I helped out at the shop. We became friends, cause we're about the same age, but I had a boyfriend then, so did he have a girlfriend (the same one in the newspapers). His parents have a durian orchard in Teluk Kumbar, so we went there just to eat the fruits, mangoesteens etc. The first time he held my hands? When I was losing my grip hiking up the hill in the orchard =P

We tried keeping the friendship entirely platonic, cos both of us were attached...but both of us had problems with our partners at that time also. More like me treating him like a little brother, he's younger than me by 1 year. We went out a few times to eat,movie..I knew he was involved in stuff that is not so right by law,and I did advice him..but listened or not, I do not know. Nor am I entitled to run his life.

But on one incident, he held a very special place in my heart ever since. I had a motorcycle test on that morning..Yes,I only got my bike license 2years after I passed my driving test. Anyway, the test is held somewhere near my house, about 20mins away. So that morning I went for the test in the Kembara that I shared with my brother. (FYI: I passed the test very successfully. Luckily..so far no one in my family has taken any driving,bike test twice..so I cannot afford to fail)..Maybe I was too ecstatic over my passing that on my way back, I hit a 'benteng' and when "Poom"...I thought I was pretty much dead cos it's probably a baaaaddd scratch. Mana tau when I came down to check, I had a flat tire.

Me being 'jaga muka' type, I mean, I've seen my ex changing tires once, how hard can it be right? I signaled the hazard lights (if u call the double signal thing that anyway), took out the yellow pyramid signboard. I mean, I'm not supposed to flag down strangers for help right? Although it was 12 in the noon, still dangerous right? (me and my too much of watching movies) And I was worried my dad will skin me alive if I were to call him,..so I just took out the manual, read, and simply hentam to change the flat tire. OH,many vehicles waved at me while I attempted to change tire,but none actually stopped lah. Apparently it's a bit different from normal cars like Wira, ...cos it's higher...I managed to unscrew the bolts and nuts...Then I couldn't find the jack,so that was the end of my tire changing. Then it started raining heavily, so in the end I had to call my dad also. It was lunch time so he could come over, and my battery was running low, but I managed to text my ex, thongching/cmin, and ahyu that I have a flat tire and it was raining heavily..if I remember correctly. Hey 2 years d, can't remember the exact details. But I remember thongching/cmin calling back immediately I think..and Ahyu also did,but my hp went flat after that.The moment I on the hp again, Ahyu called again,and it went flat again,for a few times,so I didn't try anymore. in fact,I had to find a public phone to call my dad that time. Dad came 20mins later.

Then Dad doesn't know how to change a Kembara tire also..but at last managed to borrow jack from nearby shop..Yes, I did all the changing. Dad,in his aging years, was not very helpful =( but he gave directions la. After changing the tire and stuff, we went to a tire shop and went home. Upon reaching the coffee shop, I wanted to tell Ahyu that I'm ok,passed my test and stuff but he wasn't around except his bro. His brother was pretty shocked to see me also, and:

Me: Eh, where's your brother?
His bro: Huh, you're back?..I thought you had a flat tire
Me:Yalo, settled liao. just now your bro called me a few times ma, what's the matter?
His: Aiya, he didn't find you ar?
Me: (puzzled)
His: Just now you didn't answer the phone, and you had a flat tire, so he went looking for you liao

Wah..I was so so so so so touched. Totally terharu. Heart melt terus. I mean,we were just friends and he went to look for me? I mean, my fault also lah for not calling him, but I didn't know he was going to go search for me right?That's about the most romantic thing a person has done for me. It was even better than getting a dozen of roses..serious!! Jiwang siol. Imagine he would do that for a friend, so of course he would treat his gf even way better right? it may seemed little but it meant a lot a lot to me. When he came back I aplogized profusely for making him go all the way, and he didn't even know where I was in the first place..maybe just the test area lah. He said it was very dangerous for a girl to be stuck with flat tire in heavy rain, and an attractive one too! =)

And my ex (bf at that time, I only heard from him via a text msg the day after, itu pun because I sms-ed him 1st)..reason? hp no credit.yaya, and there's no such thing as a public phone or house phone?My ex does sayang and treat me as how a bf should treat a gf, but that indident really irked me off,and I keep thinking that Ahyu as a friend also can go all the way to find me d..I start comparing. I broke off with him few days later,much to his resistance,but cannot,maybe I've fallen in love with Ahyu liao that time,hehe. In conclusion, I memang terharu sungguh by him lar so.. =)

After that we went out together and stuff, but things didn't work out for us, cos I couldn't commit =(. But I really did treasure his friendship. In fact,my Nokia 6100 (yep,the one that fell into the toilet bowl, he was the one who brought me to buy the hp..I paid la of course =P) so now really treasure the hp siot..He really did taught me many things about the not-so-glamorous part of life--drugs, loansharks, etc..Hmm,type till so much..I think you also read till bored d,so the rest of the details I'll just keep to myself lah. =)

So the person's gone...but he'll remain in my heart forever as a very dear friend. =) Life goes on, think not of the sad things, just keep the sweet memories, no? The past week and the weekend has been great, but lazy to type already..Time to supper.. (P/s:The gym is going great =) Not so great part is whacking the food double after gym,haha)