Star-crossed being

JOPP!!!…before I continue do not think that I am any close to have any remote resemblance to star-crossed lovers’ story of Romeo and Juliet. Far far far from it. I’ve recently met a person with whom my star totally crosses his. A “wan san” (in Cantonese, as they call it).

My team leader (I can just hope that he never discovers this blog). We’ve been working together 4 months already. In the beginning I thought he was a really nice person, being so friendly, chatty, gave very good advice – okay, wait a minute, from the beginning he has only criticized that I do not have good fashion sense, punctuality, no sense of financial control and that I should be so and so yada yada yada. I took them as constructive criticisms. After all, he’s a 1st Class Graduate, a team leader at only 26 years old, a Toastmaster president of some branch and really articulate. He was like the golden boy –

Hah of late, there are few incidents happening that made me really really changed my mind. A few words to describe him – Arrogant, stingy, master of taichi (in the working culture sense). He could be nice at times (I mean, really I felt that I could chat with him but arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh at this time I am not feeling so generous with compliments – he totally kills my mood.

It would be too petty of me of me to describe each incident (which I still clearly remember) but… sooner or later the bubble will burst – Of late I’ve been showing signs of being really anti-him. I ignore him when he speaks, sarcastic, jelling-jeling him, he has to be ultra-dense not to have noticed.

And the worst thing is, both of us share the same birthdate!! (not year, but month and day)…it makes me really doubt horoscopes – the being a Virgo thing, characteristics etc. Boh! But someone did comment how much we are alike – but very friendly, open, very good socializing/communicating skills. That’s about it. I hope, if I were 100% like him, then I must really really be membencikan. No wonder I’ve been gaining enemies.

But I absolutely do not share his perfectionist and organized attitude. And God, I hope I am not so critical of one person as he is!!! (and no, I am not a clean person). Does that make me a worse person than him? Having all the bad characteristics and lacking the good ones? Wah lagi-lah teruks.

Neways I just needed to vent. But really really anti-anti-anti-anti-anti-anti him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If one day if I ever write on this blog that I am in love with my team leader, someone tie me up and slap me awake. (oh by the way, we share the same surname too, Tan – how can a Tan be so hateful???? I thought we were nice ppl?????)

Unless me also that membencikan. Aihsssssssssssssssssssssssss. HATEHIM HATEHIM HATEHIM HATEHIM HATEHIM HATEHIM HATEHIM HATEHIM HATEHIM HATEHIM HATEHIM HATEHIM