quarterlife crisis thing

I think I'm experiencing a phase II quarterlife crisis. I just feel so lazy and demotivated to do anything at all. Totally uninspired.

change design!

After being MIA so long in blogging...never realized this Template Designer function thingy...but it's time for a change...still a bit too colorfulish for my liking, yes i'm such a boring person...we'll see!

Poppy...

Btw it's my birthday today! :) Spoke to my mom just now and she told me that she won a lucky draw last night - A Dell Laptop, but she also said that Poppy, our dog in Taiping passed away a few days ago...and Papa said he has been with us since 1995...so it's a bit older than 15 years old...for a dog to live up to 15 yrs I find it impressive, no?

Mom said a week ago when she went back to Taiping Poppy seemed really weak but Poppy has always been loyal and guarded the house (fiercely?) all his life. I remembered it came in a cute puppy size, if I am not mistaken...well I don't go back to Taiping that often so I don't remember...

But initially, it used to at all strangers, the 1st time I saw it, it barked at me and my mom made it 'smell' and 'sniff' at me and remember my 'scent'...after that it never barked at me anymore...

Anyway, Poppy had been sick since early this year, I'd say due to old age and something at his 'coconuts'...but it wouldn't quit and still took care of the house. Mama said she did this 'ritual', burned incense etc and spoke to Poppy..."you know you've served us for a long long time, and since you have been sick, you don't have to do it anymore...you could go if you want, we appreciate you being around for so long" (I don't know ar if this has been dramatized or not...I'm just saying it how my mom told me) but i guess Poppy understood? My parents make a weekly trip back to Taiping just to feed him...so last weekend when they went back to Taiping, Poppy already died peacefully in his sleep. Mama said it sat in a very nice position, with his nose facing the gate, just as usual, waiting for his owners to come home every week...but maybe his spirits was lifted and felt it was OK to leave after my mom did the 'ritual' thing. I don't know for sure if a dog understood but I guess so? It's so simple but yet so touching...

Then Mama buried it with Papa's help...but as carcasses, like humans, after it died, would bloat up...Mama wrapped it and was about to carry it then it let out a big fart...so she got such a fright and fell sick...well, anyway Poppy is now lying in his last home just behind our house in Taiping...Mama said it brought her luck, hence the Laptop Dell lucky draw...so it's all good

May Poppy RIP